DAFNE trial.

So I haven't posted in a while, which is truly terrible, but these things do happen.

This year i'm taking part in a research trial for Diabetics, where I take part in a week long course called DAFNE (dose adjustment for normal eating,), and get assigned to a group either with the insulin pump or with injections.

I am on injections now, have been for the past 13 years, and wish to keep it that way, but unfortunately i have been assigned to the pump group.

I will have the pump strapped to my side for a year.

Don't get me wrong, I know I should feel grateful. So many people are desperate to go on the pump, and in other countries i know they would have to pay a lot of money for the privilege.  I know it will potentially be a change for the better. But I find changes like this hard, as they remind me of my illness, drag me out of my comfort zone kicking and screaming and force me to address the fact that my pancreas is dead and without modern medicine, so would I be.

Sorry to be a bit dark and depressing, I really know I shouldn't be.
So with that, I'll try and be a bit more positive. This year i have a chance to really get my diabetes under control, take charge of my life.  Wish me luck, I might need it!